I'm not sure why I felt like revisiting my teenage, (and younger) years today. It's not like I have particularly fond memories of them like most people do. My years spent growing up in Surrey were mediocre at best. I was physically and mentally bullied for pretty much the entire amount of time I spent in education, which lead to self-loathing, lonliness and the early onset of depression.
Today I've been feeling suicidal. Those of you that have followed my story throughout the lifetime of this blog will be aware that this is nothing new. I often have days where I've just had enough of being me and can't be bothered to carry on. Today was one of those days, and I couldn't… Continue reading What depression feels like to me.
Note: I originally wrote this blog earlier this year for The Huffington Post. Unfortunately it wasn't approved and published, perhaps because of the somewhat sensitive content contained within. Trigger warning: This article contains descriptions of self-harm and suicide. The term “mental health” is bandied about a lot these days. It’s almost as if it’s become… Continue reading My Experience Of Mental Illness And The Mental Health System
Last week I attended an assessment for Personal Independence Payment or as it's more commonly known as PIP. This wasn't the first time that I've had to go to one of these appointments. I previously applied to receive the additional payment earlier in the year after the DWP told me that I was entitled to… Continue reading Applying for PIP… Again!
Autumn has always been my favourite part of the year. I love the way the leaves on the trees all change colour and eventually fall to the ground, the darker evenings that make you glad to be tucked up safely inside and the cooler temperatures and variable weather that signify the change in season. If… Continue reading Thoughts on the festive season
It's funny how life can be leading you in one particular way one moment, and then all of a sudden with no warning it pulls you in another. That's kind of how things have been for me over the past few weeks, and subsequently why my blogs have been a little thin on the ground.… Continue reading One step forward.. Five steps back